Family Matters

Each day I am reminded of how truly blessed I am to have my family. I come from such a diverse and accomplished group of people. As I am transitioning into the adult world I am thankful for the foundation that was laid for me. One thing I have learned is that there is no love like family love. When I hurt they hurt. When I cry they cry. It doesn't get much better than that in my opinion.

When faced with the challenges of pre and post graduation issues I had only my family. My friends have experienced and are experiencing the same things, but to console another in your shoes if often hard. I hated to hear "Well that happened to me", or "Well I mean look at me". When I wanted and at times needed to hear "Everything will work out", "Trust me it gets better". Don't get me wrong I have wonderful friends. Very supportive friends. Sometimes people who are going through the same struggles are a little more selfish. Sometimes you have to be. I learned to become a little more selfish in regards to my life. That doesn't mean don't help others, but you have to look out for you first. & where you lack your family picks up. Who would know that better than I.

As I approach graduation things have slowly begin to trickle into place. I started to feel more excitement this past week. I was getting butterflies thinking about walking across the stage. I burst into tears watching the graduation scene in Drumline. That's when it hit me. This is way bigger than high school! Planning events, preparing for guests and of course adding up the funds has been joyus. I cant wait until May. I have so many things planned. So much family coming. Most importantly I have something wonderful to look forward too. I wouldn't be the person that I am today if it wasn't for the sacrifice made by my family. Family matters most to me. From the looks of things it looks like I matter the most to them. I want the world to know that I wouldn't trade anyone in my family for the World and all its riches. We have our own. Things get better everyday now. I absolutely adore these people!

Zimbabwean+American = Extraordinarian

Have you ever been the different one among many? Perhaps you may have been the only male in a room full of women, or vice versa. You could have been the only woman on your all male job. But let's take it a step deeper. You could possibly be the only one of your or gin in one place. These things qualify you to be extraordinary right? Well what if you were like me. Of course we all know that cant be BUTTTTTT........have you ever thought what it would be like to be a little more different than everyone else in your family?? Coleman and I both are. Along with Miguel & Nathaniel can you guess it? If you are related to me then of course you know what I am saying. We are the only Americans in our WHOLE family. Isn't that exciting!!! Now I am sure you are wondering how this works. Well let me break it down for you. My daddy is from Bulawayo, Zimbabwe. That would make him African. My mother is from Memphis, TN. That would make her American. Put them together and you have what we like to call a real African American. It's not that boring though. So my father came to America with missionaries to attend college. It was there that he met my mother, got married and had two stunning children. Yours truly and my younger brother Coleman. Making us every one's American everything. American grandchildren....American Cousins......American Niece & Nephew. You get it .... that was up until five years ago, then we had little Miguel join us followed by Nathaniel. To me the most exciting part is that I have German cousins....African cousins....English cousins.....Scottish cousins. I'm internationally known & loved not many Americans can say that! There is a person across the ocean who looks just like me! In fact we all kind of look alike in a strange way. Gaps or the nose you take your pick!! Each day I meet someone new. I have so much to look forward to in the mornings. & the best part is I have my whole entire life left ahead of me to spend with & get to know my wonderful family. The best has yet to come. This summer I will be visiting the UK. Each day I am reminded of why this will be the most memorable trip of my life. most importantly why I cant wait!!!! I know the best rapper alive!!!! America just doesn't know him yet! I know the most adorable little children. America just hasn't seen them yet. Some of the most amazing people in the world are mine. And if its the last thing I do I will make sure America knows that. Maybe being American isn't all that bad (considering my recent lashing out about the state of the economy). After all being American makes me very different among them, so its great. At least we will always have long nights and early morning conversations. Plenty to talk about. Plenty to learn. &&& I CANT WAIT for my life to take off. I always knew it would be great. Each days gets better. 5 years from now I am afraid to think of where I will be in life. That much happiness and bliss has to be a sin. But I must say I have been waiting my whole youthful life for this transition. I must say never in my wildest dreams could have imagined the taste of life to be this sweet. 

My Country Tis of Thee.....Isn't All it's Cracked Up to Be

Its been a few days since we last chatted...Sorry. In my absence I have experienced extreme fun filled excitement. And extreme sadness. I have found that when you are traveling through this maze called life there is no proper way to prepare yourself for it. Life is one of those ever changing things that you can't truly ever prepare for. In most times when you find yourself experiencing life in the most impacting form..it is usually during the worst of times. This is what I have found that makes life...life. Let's take death for example. The moments of death remind us of the circle of life. Yes death ends life, but one is beginning while one is ending. And while one is beginning it is also changing another life. So this circle seems so simple. Yet the circle is really complex. The complexity of the circle results from the fluff that lies within it. Life isn't that complex when all you have to do is live. Life becoming itself through its experiences make it complex. A little like what I just said. Life is easy, the experiences life bring make life hard. And mine just got that much more difficult. When you have everything you need & desire life is a cruise. One major let down, heartbreak, or mistake can make all of those things disappear in a matter of seconds. Your reaction & solution to the fluff of life make you equip for the next life experience. After all life is about experiences right?

The state of the economy is a touchy subject right now. I remember when I was so proud to be American. We were the best thing since sliced bread. I was ecstatic to be from the United States of America. Now I think I could say I beg to differ. Don't get me wrong I am privileged to be an American. But slowly and surely that value I have begun to question. I have been further reminded during these times of how greedy America is. This country was built off of lies, robbery, & deceit. Its sad to say but Karma is here. But why on us? We didn't kill & steal to build America. And those who created the biggest of problems will never feel it, the way we the people have. The imbecile president who created this is long gone I mean he could careless.Thanks W- I Hate you too!! The founders of this country=robbers, liars & idiots that built this country are dead and gone. They wont feel it. The It was a distant heartfelt concern until it hit a little too close to home. This recession that is. One of my closest friends just lost her "new found" job. In search of this "American Dream", which is a common mis conception these days. Federal Express one of the biggest staples in America is losing money left and right. They started with pay cuts & now lay offs. Random layoffs at that. Everyone is at risk of losing their jobs at Fed Ex. (everywhere) From the mail boy to the highest leveled executive, yes that's right....my daddy does work there. He has been under loads of stress because at any random given day...moment it could be him. That isn't my biggest concern at all. I know my daddy will be okay. What enrages me is the fact that American children are starving because their parents have lost their jobs. And the governement is handing out billion dollar bailouts. Adults are moving back in with their parents after years of independence & some with their own families. People are killing their own families because they can no longer make ends meet. There are no jobs. No security & for me very little hope left in the government. It saddens me that I know people who cant return back to school because of money issues. It shocks me that tuition is raising in the amount that it is preventing eager students from continuing their higher learning educations. It pisses me off when you (the college/university) raise your tuition by thousands of dollars in the middle of a recession but you are paying millions of dollars for MEANINGLESS buildings around your campus'. So where is the money going???Have we all lost sight of what really matters? Last but not least can somebody, anybody explain to me how you spend four years of your life....at a university/college to better yourself to survive in this American Society......you pay over $100,000 for a measly piece of paper and a few satisfying hours to celebrate your accomplishments over the past four years, YET YOU CANT GET A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where do they do that ??? How does that work???Well it happens here in America....& it works ummmm just like this........ Hello my name is Verushka Dior Wilson, I am a 22 year old anxiously waiting to graduate. My ceremony will be May 10 , 2009. I came to Hampton fours & a half years ago with hopes of one day becoming a news reporter. I paid Hampton University $100,000 in tuition alone. Not including my books....money for leisure.... parking tickets....wardrobes...school supplies...(you get the idea I am sure you are experiencing the same thing & if not know someone who is) all without one loan &&&&&&& guess what I CANT FIND A JOB!! You see my frustration and many of you can feel it. But I am not the worse off average American right now. The point is I have learned through this fluff of life to count your blessings. Through my anger and rage I am truly blessed. I am reminded each day of my favor with the Lord. With that being said I would assume that this life experience was preparing me for something else. It is a very harsh reality to face but I guess times like this make us who were are. We are still the best country. Even throughout the mayhem, we always come out on top right?? God I hope so.

Until Death Do Us Part

While speaking with my 21 year old younger brother this morning he asked me a very unexpected question. "Would you ever date a married man?" My initial reaction was laughter, which I then followed with a strong Hell No! This is a conversation that I have engaged in one too many times before. Certain things in this life I am absolutely terrified of. And dating/messing with a married man is high on that list. I look down upon people who intervene into someone else's sacred union. Simply because it is ordained by God. (well some marriages) So what could at all be right or permissible about dating a married person?? Comments like this I have often heard...."Well I don't like him he just gives me money"(As if there aren't enough SINGLE tricks out here in the world... or how about INDEPENDENCE)..."He told me he was going to leave his wife"(Yeah right they always say that... don't you watch Lifetime)..."They are getting a divorce"(So wait until that is final idiot...I mean are you searching for the fastest way to Hell)....."I am just living life, it isn't like I 'm going to marry him".(Of course you aren't!!Did you forget he is already married??!!!)... you know the rest of those sorry excuses from those who voluntarily enlist themselves as adulterers. In other words you cant really expect to find happiness with another person's spouse because you were intruding from the beginning. And not to just pick on the ladies because men do it too. Even though it isn't as common. That is really what sparked this conversation. As a 36 year old married woman with a 6 year old child is chasing my younger brother!!!!!!(He knows I am blogging on this) So he posed that question I guess for reassurance of doing the right thing!! Some would take Stella's offer without thought...but we were raised a "little" different. So do the rules differ when the sexes are switched??? No they don't. Marriage is marriage regardless the pursuer or pursuee. Lesson for the day.....Married people..... OFF LIMITS

Not to mention people are getting a little crazy these days. So pay close attention to the words UNTIL DEATH DO US PART.....maybe Until Death Do YOU Part !!

March Madness....A Little April Gladness

Mrs. B. Carter came, saw & conquered the Month of March. Endorsements with Nintendo & her adorable nephew....Magazine Covers, not just America's Vogue(April) but Italy's as well. And of course a little New York shopping gave the press, media & fans an overdosed amount of your most famed & loved Icon. Please do not take this as obsession (even though I don't care if you do) but one must learn to give respect where respect is  due. And March 2009 belongs to Beyonce. 

Once...Twice...Three Times A Lady

Queen Bey has done it again!!!! So it has been brought to  an open discussion once again to fully hate on the flawless people of the world . I am a die hard Beyonce fan so my opinions/comments may and could be taken as a little bias...BUT she is an inevitably gorgeous creature. So what if they added padding to the damn dress.....her curves are still vivacious! And to note that the dress was originally made for Jerry Hall..who is about 4 inches larger than Beyonce. So naturally some alterations would need to be made to fit her size 19 waist! Not to mention that she is still the baddest in the game.....haters convene else where, maybe you should contact Keri and get some pointers from her. She seems to be very experienced in that area!! 

Sheer absolutely Sheer B...........

Flowing& Living

As the events of my life have begun to create a whirl wind before my eyes....I thought that I should capture each moment in its entirety so that it may last forever. What better way than the old fashioned way.... writing it down!! Well in this case ..typing it!! So as I am transitioning into a new realm of life I have found myself stuck in a limbo. Between two worlds. The college world on one hand, I will miss in a bitter sweet kind of way. But the small taste of the real world I have had is .... utterly bitter and I am searching for the sweetness within it. I cant seem to find the medium. The anxiety of not knowing what is to come is the killer. So what is a girl to do? Live. I chose to just live each day. I figured everything will fall into place on its own agenda and I'll just go with the flow. Flowing & Living that would sum up what I'm doing...& I must say I'm  getting really good at it!! 

I am more than excited to be preserving my life's greatest moments. You are in for a delightful treat!!! Don't judge....God don't like Ugly& neither do I !!!